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Academy Training Wasted

by Character Actors

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lacey776 Really enjoyed this. I graduated high school in 1994. Entire album very familiar to the music I started to love then and still enjoy to this day. Thanks for the Twitter follow. I now have a great new band to add to the soundtrack of my life.
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1.
Mrs Nesbitt 01:56
Will I be a has-been at 25? Am I a never-gonna-be already? Why am I-I-I-I stayin’ alive when I don’t make a difference to anybody? Is a nobody all I’ll be, or do I worry too much about the greater scheme? All my life I’ve been walking asleep, now I’m a victim of my dreams Won’t someone tell me this is making a difference, won’t someone tell me this matters? I got a quarter life crisis and a heavy head no drink can satisfy I treat my life as a means to an end, to an end I’ll never find I got a smile on my face but I’m a miserable fuck, heart and mind bursting and breaking Bad ideas, bad dreams, no belief or luck, killing time by time wasting Won’t someone tell me one day it’ll be different, won’t someone tell me it gets better? I guess that in my head I am already gone, and I’ll try, fail, try for years But do I really have that long, or what it takes to get the fuck out of here? And take the applause and shake the hands, laugh and drink the wine I’ll treat my life as a means to an end, to an end I’ll never find
2.
We sat three by three, we watched some tv You, your brothers, my brother and me When on the tv, we suddenly see A reflection of all we were trying to be The signs had arrived, right into our minds Lay down your weapons for now it is time To howl with glee, to cry and to scream Just like the stars that we see on tv Their kings and queens, they never will bleed But they also have nothing that they can believe Their hate and their greed, it's all that they need It eventually creeps into both you and me No reason no rhyme, no sinner or crime The policeman whispers it's gonna be fine Between you and me, it’s all just a breeze This thing we called life, yeah it's all that we need One last time, I will lie, and say that I am no longer scared to die But never mind, please don't cry, because I will try to keep all your secrets in mind I pray that you say that we can never fade away
3.
Uno Distress 01:54
Pigheaded singer-songwriter seeks someone to boss around I’m at least ten strings short of realising how this should sound I need a proper singer, someone who’ll beat the drums into the ground Yeah this song was written for a band I haven’t found I need one, two, three amigos to relieve the pressure in these chords But three, two, one, rock n’roll is less fun when you’re rooted to the floor I’m a wannabe visionary, won’t somebody make my vision clear In a wall of distortion and crash cymbals, won’t somebody hear Us triumphantly sing the hideous things we’d never think out loud Yeah this song was written for a band I haven’t found I need one, two, three pairs of fingers to bleed for the cause upon these strings But three, two, one, rock n’ roll is less fun when no one’s listening Yeah we’ll probably play drunk and fight after every show Over who fucked up and why I can’t let my dream go So I sit here with my lonely songs, waiting for replies Let me know if you’re like-minded, you’ve nothing to lose but your mind
4.
Reflections on reality, well they weigh heavy on me A little black cloud that I carry around Rumbles like thunder in my skull and makes me act out Less in sense than sympathy, my heart only makes a fool of me Wish I could tear it up or tear it out And whatever’s left, I’ll build a new one around I don’t want you to want the person I am, I want to be the person that you want The petty green of jealousy, it don’t look good on me I don’t wear it well or wear it out It sticks to my skin as long as you stick around No I’m not that good at being lonely, but I know I need the chance to be I’ll toughen up, grow new skin around These bones will surely break if I can’t keep you out I’ll keep finding new reasons to get better
5.
My friends have gone home, my friends have gone home and nobody left standing that I want to know the fires in our eyes died three hours ago but I never made plans to leave So where do I go? So where do I go? the songs and the scene and the night has grown old I've used up all my party tricks, sick of my sick jokes and can't imagine where else to be redefining madness, it's the same story every night but under the moonlight, we're drawn in like the tide knowing soon enough the laughing will be crying the same sinking feeling every time the party's dying and alone under streetlight, asking strangers for the time I'd rather play dumb, I'd rather play dumb this will hurt in the morning, so may the morning never come the last man standing, at the mercy of the sun the city sleeps or has the good sense to play dead so where do I run? So where do I run? I'm all out of answers and tripping on my tongue as I try to recall the real damage done and thinking about what an old man said (maybe I should call...) for help, but I can't feel a single thing but the weight gravity drags my weary bones as I fight my way make a break, great escape from the smoky room mistake a lonely streetlight for the moon briefly think about the tide, hit the floor and throw up in waves the moon, she mocks me as my stomach spills onto the floor knowing, sure as the tide, I'll only come back for more and soon enough the laughing will be crying the same sinking feeling every time the party's dying and my friends will go home as if they have another time to live for
6.
Punk Kids 02:52
Fall fell onto the venue windows Into the creaks of places only we know And onto the deaf ears of all of those Who dare still walk around with pins in their clothes The crowd awoke while she never did The last of the stagelight still strokes her eyelids But the club where it happened closed to this day Ever since that day in May Punk kids stick together until they don't But they'll lie to the cops when the indie kids won't They'll barricade the backdoors, they'll busy her bones Punks they stick together up until they don't Summer seems silent when you're not at the festivals Just like the punks who the police found questionable Because every last boy in the line up knows No one looks to hard for the schizo at the punk rock show
7.
Oh No! 01:51
I got lost in a forest I visited as a child there’s an obvious chance for poetry there but I’m not going to take it the leaves, the branches and the river, could only ever be delivered through paper and pen and strings as just crude imitations No one cares for your sad sack shit no matter the metaphor you wrap around it and you can’t believe you believed you had a unique perspective You’re not gonna make any money (woah no) you’re not gonna get very far (oh no) you’re not gonna make a difference being the way you are We all dream of the words to lure a dream of a girl cos we’re told the artistic soul is the one most attractive but it’s rarely interesting to answer unasked questions and no one ever wrote a song about a girl they’re not in love with I’m a defeatist dreamer, a faithful non-believer a man of art with a scientist heart trying to create something greater than me but when I don’t believe it’s possible the pursuit becomes irrational and I end up in the same place I’m always trying to leave
8.
In ever-decreasing circles do we have anything to cling to As one by one we fall into mere memories And mazes of obscure jokes, with long-forgotten punchlines And only desperate courtesy left to revive Vague shapes of conversations, repeated questions From years’ past, when it wasn’t so awkward to ask Now we misremember and exaggerate better times, in the hope we’ll strike a spark to fly The time away, help me take this time away Small talk of work and weather for the time being Between tight handshakes and loosened tongues Toasts to absentees, might-have-beens and dreams Back through the years, back to when we were happy So don’t admit I’m an inconvenience, don’t confess that you felt obliged You couldn’t feel more sorry for me than I do, cos when I’ve no one else I can only turn to you To take the time away, help me take this time away I want to fight to reclaim some of this distance I hope you feel the same, I know it doesn’t make sense But I believe we’ve spent too much time away from one another, so I need you to say Let’s take some time away together Help me take this time away If you make time fly for me, I will make time fly for you
9.
To-Do List 02:16
First thing in the morning My brain starts forming Every reason to stay in bed And every morning I start discerning The words that my parents said They said Never eat in bed And don't trust the government Let us know when you've done something wrong Play well but work hard And for the love of god Don't put us in your stupid songs Get home in the evening With the sick sad feeling That maybe I'd just rather be dead But before i start screaming Over all I don't believe in This thought pops into my head It says No one is born a monster Just like no one dies a saint But we all do die So we all just have to try To do it without much regret or compliant
10.
Yeah and it's nights like these I wish my life were a movie scene A dead man's dream With cigarette butts and methlamene In place of all this strife And I never thought I would see these things Like mirrorballs and broken wings And at once you see your darkest sins And a reflection of you in a knife And isn't it just a lovely sight And the worst things first and the bad things last And all of the good things are all in the past But right now all I lack would be anywhere but here And who would have thought I would see you smile For the very first time in a long while My radios stuck just left of the dial But it's all I need tonight And burning bridges cant get much worse Unless you forget to get off it first So sell your crap and buy a hearse Or just get on with your life It's such a gorgeous sight
11.
Dean James 01:38
My friend Ed Dorado called me up with something amazing to see Up from my cynical slumber, I joined the journey expectantly But with bitter glitter down the road, I learned there’s no such thing as gold Ed Dorado, you’re just a joke Will I leave laughter in my wake or a perplexing punchline? I’ve got so much ground to make and a fraction of the time From forever through tomorrow, I know nothing will change So put me through to someone who can handle my complaint My friend Dean James he called me up, said it’s really not that bad I almost had greatness thrust upon me, but I messed up the catch Now I conform without a cause, the story of my life on pause Oh Dean James, you’re just a joke This world was made for the beautiful, so where do I belong? Life is tough and I am not, I fear it’s already won I’m falling through a list of questions never long enough So connect me please to the person with these answers or hang up
12.
Exit Sandman 03:48
I died in my dreams last night again What do you think that means? The cost of all these dreams The loss of all I need I like the simple songs best But they don't work lately And the bad times have made me lazy This used to make me crazy But there's nothing left to say At the end of the day Don’t you think it’s time to go? There's no other way Thanks for letting me stay But I think it’s time to go Add it all up, let it fall down And get the next round on me I found some peace last night What do you think that means? Silver linings of these deeds The worth of my best dreams

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Recorded semi-hungover in a few days in Bradford and Leeds, UK.

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released October 24, 2019

All songs written and performed by Alex Rijpma and Josh Booth. Recorded, mixed and mastered by Rob Hobson.

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Leeds' friendliest and handsomest British-Dutch-Seychellois punk rock band, formerly Free Dogs. New album, THE HARD PART, out now!

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